i touched about broken hearts last time as i talked about broken crayons. i would like to share an spin-off epilogue about fixing, mending, healing broken hearts with this quote/saying. by the way, i use 'quote/saying' every time when i type for this top 5 series because i'm not sure which one is the correct one to use. to save me from headache, i use both. problem solved!
so, this quote/saying... Time heals almost everything. it hit close to home. i believe that some of us have ever had their heart broken so bad by someone or something, you couldn't help yourself but to cry the pain out of your chest. for someone who never been into a romantic relationship before, i once had my heart broken badly. i'm not too sure if everyone will agree with me but i personally think that friendship breakups are even worse than romantic relationship breakups.
i had a broken friendship two years ago. she was such a good friend of mine from our university years. but eventually, we fell apart over trivial matters (which if i state here will make you go 'what on earth that's silly!' i'm very sure of it so it's better for me not to mention them) she changed or maybe showed her true colour when we (there were 4 of us that time) were undergoing our internship at the same workplace. there were 2 times when she threw tantrum over trivial stuffs and didn't want to talk to the three of us at all. the first time, we confronted and asked her what have gone wrong. i'm confessing to you that i'm someone who doesn't cry easily but that time, i cried so hard because of something she said that had pained me and my two friends badly.
"why are you guys crying? don't you know if you cry first, you've lost this battle between us?"
at that time, i couldn't believe my ears but my eyes reacted so much faster at the words. i or should i say we, have never considered her as our enemy nor were we having a battle against her. she was our friend! our good friend, for goodness' sake. we talked, which mainly consisted of her pointing out our weaknesses as an individual. after the lengthy convo, we made up eventually for we put our friendship first. i told myself 'it's okay, she's my friend, i can endure this'.
but when she started the second cold against us, we gave up on her, or should i say she gave up on the three of us. we tried (WE TRIED, for goodness' sake) to mend things up with her but it didn't work out. she treated everyone, including the staffs at the workplace like we were her sworn enemies. unfortunate, yes, but we let her go. we had to.
i was devastated after that and mourned for like 4 months? lol but in all seriousness, how could i not cry over it when she was one of my closest friends and suddenly she was nothing more than a stranger. but good old pal, Time, did awesome job at mending my heart just like it always does. It's been two years. i would be lying if i say i'm not even a tad bit sad whenever it crosses my mind but i can assure you that i'm glad i let her go. because somehow, we need to accept that some people can only stay in our heart, not in our life.
sometimes i think of her, not because i miss her, but i miss the good days we had together back then. when we all were still good friends. i hope she's living her life fine now. me and my other two friends were heartbroken but i'm sure that back then this friend who walked away was left heartbroken too. i hope she had let time heal her heart. and if she's still hurting inside, i hope she'll give time, time.
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